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I 💘 YouTube, Part II

In the interest of further exploring my experience with Fresno Unified, as well as add another dimension to my definition of quitting, I decided to analyze two of my favorite YouTube artists:

Quote Response 👫 Prince Ea 🧠

Please note, these are my takeaways; your takeaways will likely be different.But our takeaways have equal value, and I’d love if you shared you experiences in the comments.

(1) Don’t treat the word quit as this negative thing. Reframe the emotions behind, “I quit,” the intent behind the phrase. If you don’t know what I mean, consider some of the things Prince Ea quit:

I just can’t do this anymore; I’ve changed… So, not to be rude, but I’m done trying to live up to your expectations… and down to them…

I quit holding myself back, feeling emotionally trapped, and not being who I’d like to be… I quit letting people who have proven they  don’t really care about me, get to me… I quit forgiving everyone else in the whole world (except me)…

I quit letting fear come near and suppress me… I quit self-doubt, I quit self-sabotage… I quit being a gonna-doer… I quit waiting for ducks to line up instead of spreading my wings… I quit the fear of failure, and the fear of success… now, my time here is up.

Oh, but don’t worry: I’m grateful for the experience, and I have an amazing new life lined up.

I quit.

Quote Response 👭 Dave from Boyinaband 👬

(2) Instead of calling a musician a “sellout,” consider the human potential for change. A human being who’s set out to change the world (like a musician) is going to believe in the value of change, and of course, that will directly impact that musician’s artistic choices, i.e., the musician’s songwriting, aesthetic, goals, etc.

As Boyinaband describes it:

When you’re that sick of doing the same thing, it’s either [change] or taking a trip to Switzerland, if you catch my drift.

I wonder though, does he mean that musicians who aren’t making new music are going on tour instead? (Also, he promotes grammar nerdism in this video. Don’t be a grammar nerd.(Or do. Just don’t let it affect your grading, plskthx.))

Poetry is Safer than Home 🖐 Intolerance 🖖

(3) While the targets of sexist, racist,
neuro-intolerant, and other forms of hate

deserve safe spaces
for ethically authentic, pathos-driven conversations

about their experiences, their uniqueness
(memoirs, spoken word, open mic, protests, board game discussions, and so on,)

as a culture, we need to change the overall
narrative from a pathos-driven argument,

ex., micro-aggression: “You look like a girl,”
is met with a micro-response: “Don’t be a homo, bro,”

to a more ethos-driven lens
that encapsulates the greater problem:

No one benefits from being negative about irrelevant things, that’s the end of it. It’s pointless. —Dave from Boyinaband

Because, as we near…

  • an internationally interconnected planet,
  • a Type-I Civilization,
  • a self-learning-AI-driven society,
  • an increasingly Internet-dependent community,
  • & a species intent on pursuing the science behind superintelligence,

—we need to extend
the conversation to widespread, rampant,
and authentic egalitarianism.

Workview 🤙 Respect Your Colleagues 💪

It’s pretty easy to see from the list-based brainstorming: I’ve no plans to return to K-12 education, at least not as a paraprofessional for Fresno Unified. To reiterate:

An intellectual field should not be a social minefield.

And my interview conflicted with this belief at a quintessential level.

However, I respect the teachers and other educators at McLane, and I’m grateful for all the experiences we shared; even the experiences that, on the surface, felt unpleasant, were fundamental to redesigning my life. And it’s my new life design that’s giving me the courage to pursue my authentic self. I am at peace with this journey.


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