Posted in Overdrive, Patch Notes

Happy Easter

In addition to Happy April Fool’s Day—

Happy Easter!

In My Life Today 💘 More Writing Music!

Between the tension in my family, Donald Trump as president, and the rollercoaster experience I had at McLane, I am not surprised in the slightest that Easter landed on April 1st. Rebirth day and fool’s day are overlapping for 2018!

Listing 💦 7 Things ❣ This Week

  1. Ask a friend if it’s okay to e-mail them
  2. Write 30-45 blog posts in preparation for April
  3. Grade 12 essays
  4. Prepare 7 vocabulary assignments
  5. Prepare 3 rhetoric assignments
  6. Taxes for me and family
  7. Submit to 7 publicationsIt’s only Monday, and I’ve already completed 2 of my 7 submissions with 2 articles at and 3 poems at Alluvian.

Listing 💢 7 Bigger Things ❣ Next 5 Weeks

  1. Write a CYOA fanfiction plan for a subdomain blog
  2. Write science fiction and paranormal novellas, with long-term sights on the fantasy and magical realism novellas
  3. Grade many things, and track emotions during this process to find triggers of flow
  4. Prepare portfolio prompt for rhetoric class
  5. Prepare vocabulary exams for vocabulary class
  6. Daily to work towards the healthy mind and body I need to love my family properly
  7. Submit to 7 more publications, because success requires lots more failures

Listing 💟 7 Huge Things ❣ Next 5 Years

  1. Publish a novella series on Amazon Unlimited with the novels bursting out of my head, even if the income is meager.
  2. Maintain my self-improvement blog, while also tending a more intricate blogging schedule, such as…but not limited to…:
    • throughout the year, with a clean-up in February;
    • an autism awareness blog in April, to celebrate Autism Awareness Month;
    • a travel blog in August, to celebrate summer and the best month of the yearBirthday: August 2nd! Hurray!;
    • a gardening blog in September, with plans for next year’s backyard, so I have a place to play with my imagination, {tooltips}then several months of distance{end-text} …before the gardening work begins in February;{end-tooltip};
    • a CYOA fanfiction blogA subdomain of in November for National Blog Posting Month;
    • a secret project in December;
    • novella writing in January (Prep), March (Winter Release), May (Spring Release), July (Summer Release), and October (Autumn Release).
  3. Get married, have two kids, and maintain stable finances.
  4. Travel as a couple once every other year, then as a family every other year.
  5. Become multilingual, further exploring at least two of these languages: American Sign Language; Japanese; French; Russian; Mandarin; German; Sanskrit; Portuguese; and Spanish.
  6. Learn to play the flute well enough again to enjoy childhood video game music.
  7. Develop healthy habits for reading, writing, exercising, staying hydrated, and taking care of oral hygiene.

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Posted in Intermissions, 🚪 Cats

I 🖤 Music Videos

I love music videos. They help get me break negative thinking patterns, especially anxiety or depression triggered by my female identity, and they only take 3 to 5 minutes of my time.

Watching Right Now
10 Music Videos 🖤 3 Celebrities 🖤

It’s important to 👀 watch 👀 music videos, I think—not merely click ▶, then go about your business elsewhere while the music plays in the background. The music videos have rich visual texts embedded throughout, and the skits at the end are often beautiful thought experiments.

So experience them as an art form. Enjoy the moment.

Compliment Sandwich 💙 Taylor Swift

While I know many people positioned their lens over “Look What You made Me Do” for its repetitiveness, if you watch the music video while wearing 😎a storyteller’s glasses instead😎, after making sure you’re up-and-up on the background story, you’ll see just how beautiful of an artist Swift really has become. I’ve always dug her hits, but now I dig her Muse, too.

Listing 😍 Beyoncé

I already wrote about why I love Beyoncé; go check it out, or just enjoy my three favorite picks from beyonceVEVO:

Meaning Making 😺 Katy Perry 😻 Autism Hero

Beyond the fact Katy Perry makes the cutest perfume bottles ever (see featured image), I fell in love with her after reading In a Different Key: The Story of Autism and discovering the beautiful performance she shared with Jodi DiPiazza at Night of Too Many Stars:

😂 I can’t watch that video without crying. 😭

If you want to avoid crying, watch these 3 empowering music videos instead:

I especially appreciate watching “Unconditionally” while making art for self-care and self-love.

Then there’s this:
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Posted in Problems, Projects

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Talking about money makes me uncomfortable. 🤢

Listing 🤮 Why Does Money Scare Me?

  1. My mom threatens me with taking away financial support if she’s mad, but offers financial support if she’s happy;
  2. Since childhood, my mom and aunt have persistently reminded me to be grateful for all the money my mom spends on me, even when I didn’t feel good because of emotional neglect;
  3. When I was with my ex, we couldn’t talk about money, because it always ended with unpleasant feelings, i.e., from my amygdala’s point of view, the conversation was never safe;
  4. When I lived with my dad in my mid twenties, while he helped me get back on my feet, my grandmother was judgmental of the financial strain I placed on him;
  5. I’ve been climbing out of credit card debt for more than seven years (but I’m happy to say, my current debt is lower than someone my age!—if only my income weren’t lower than average, too! 😅);
  6. My last bad relationship involved a lot of money mooching, and it ended with some of my things accidentally moved out of my apartment.
  7. I have student loans.

Quote Response 💸 Money

I have plans to take dance lessons. 💞 Love is difficult, but I keep trying my best. 💕 And I don’t need the money, but I do need the money, at least according to the statistics, and at 32 years old, I’ve got 8 more years before I need to judge myself about my progress.

😒 …I think I’m below average for my educational level. I don’t know, though. It shouldn’t affect my ego, as long as I’m living each day like it’s the best one, and no one’s life is getting 💩 on terribly much because of that decision.

Poetry is Safer Than Home💎 Precious Prose Poem

My parents haven’t ever let me go without. They’ve let me drop to right before going without, but given they’re trying to financially climb out of lives less off,—given they should be able to celebrate the success of finishing such treacherous climbs—they’ve withheld from spoiling me. Well. My dad spoils me a lot, actually. I wish he’d buy himself a new television. Because I experienced dark days unfamiliar to them though, struggles I didn’t want to make, but felt more prideful than I should have to cry for help, so I simply endured,—I do have an understanding of what without feels like,—and this unique form of suffering helps us respect precious resources like money, time, and love.

Prewriting 🎢 7 Questions to Ask

In the future, I ought to explore these ideas more:

  1. How can I make money while still living a meaningful, authentic life?
  2. Is meaningful, authentic living more or less important than avoiding the suffering of without?
  3. How can I gamify stock exchanges to support entrepreneurs and innovation?
  4. And if I’m going to invest in entrepreneurs and innovation, how can I also budget investments in our ecosystem, to delay the world’s suffering long enough for innovation to catch up?
  5. How, and where, will Chase and I acquire our first house?
  6. How can I make money writing without selling my soul to black market tactics, and without investing my time in someone else’s idea/brand through a third-party employer?
  7. How can I make money teaching international students online?—would a teaching credential be required, or is this something I can do in the near future, in lieu ofOr in addition to… just thinking I need family time in there. No Workaholism! substitute teaching?
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